It’s been a busy September for us so far my man has had lots on at his work with a 8 step investigation to do on top of all his other varied parts of his regular tasks he has to fulfil in his job. He is currently looking after his 14 year old son as it is currently school holidays as per consent orders with his son’s mother.
As for me I have had lots of medical tests to get done (which I did get done) a blood test to check how my Thyroid is going a Sleep study to see if I have sleep apnea and a Ultrasound on my pelvis which it looks like I have fluid in my tubes I am still waiting to get results on all these tests.
On the 23rd of September it’s my eldest brother David’s birthday and it’s also my mother in laws birthday so Happy Birthday Dave and Mum 🙂 oxxo.
Here are some September songs:
Here is more on Sam Smith’s new song:
I hope you all have a Good September (well what’s left of it anyways). Goodbye for now.
Brony Bell 🙂
This is the new No 1 song on the Aria charts this week by Sam Smith it’s a beautiful, terrific and sad song that’s for sure.
Unfortunately for me this is very true I am too good at goodbyes I have had to say goodbye to a lot of my friends from a very young age and over the years and up to very recently who I think about everyday as I know they are all smiling down on me from heaven and I feel blessed to have known them on this earth and that I have them now watching over me as my angels I love you all very much oxox.
I also want to pay tribute to Princess Diana I remember the day I heard of her passing my Ma and I were shopping (surprise, surprise lol) when the news came over the radio and we stopped and left and went home as we thought it was too sad to be out shopping as we were both crying as it was so whenever I hear this song I think of her:
Elton John is coming to my current Town of Mackay in a few days on the 22nd of September I wish I could go to see him but with my current state of fatigue that won’t be possible 😦
This is the new No 1 song on the Aria charts here in Australia Taylor Swift has knocked Pink off her throne after only three weeks at the top I love the music video for Look What You Made Me Do I love the beginning with zombie Taylor (You know I love zombies lol) and at the end when she has all the different Taylor’s lined up and they all tell each other to SHUT UP (My fave Taylor is the Third one in the Black long sleeve shirt/dress as I love black clothes and it’s hip hoppy look). I know how that feels I often want to tell myself You can all SHUT UP lol.
I found this sign on Etsy I wished we had this sign when we lived on the cane farm as we always had so many people either living with us (foster children, friends and family) or visiting us and my poor Dad was always having to get someone in to help with our septic tank. I also like the graphics on the sign which lightens the seriousness of the message on the sign.
I can’t believe how Chilly it still is here it’s usually warming up by now overall totally it’s weird the mornings are really chilly and then the afternoons are hot then it gets chilly overnight again I wish the weather would make it’s mind up lol.
This is the new No 1 song on the Aria charts this week What About Us by Pink she knocked Despacito off from it’s long rein of 16 weeks at the top of the charts which if I were Pink I would be proud as punch of that. Stay tuned for Pink’s new album Beautiful Trauma on Oct. 13.
I have been asking that very question a lot lately What About Us when will it be me and my mans turn to have our cake and eat it too we have gone through so much over the last 14 years together the good and the bad but lately nothing seems to be going our way we have both worked so hard and yet we keep falling short of our goals it always seems like we take two steps forward and three steps back it’s so very frustrating and I know that me being hit with unwellness hasn’t helped with us achieving our goals which is really hard when I’ve gone from being someone with passion and drive and enthusiasm to not even wanting to get out of bed most days which I always make myself do because who wants that for themselves and I also know that it could always be worse because I always strive to be positive and optimistic as I have always done but that is now a lot harder when you wake up everyday feeling unwell. Having said all this I wouldn’t change a thing and I’m Looking forward to the next chapter with you my wonderful man I love you oxox.
How cool is this:
I am also very grateful to have this year upgraded our mobile phone from a Samsung Galaxy S4:
To a Samsung Galaxy S7 Edge
Maybe I can set a new goal for myself and make a anti gravity cake drawing inspiration from the Samsung phones lol.
I just was going through my E-mails this morning and low and behold I have won another prize here is what I have won:
Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children prize pack valued at $100, including:
1. One copy of Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children DVD.
2. Official Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children merchandise.
3. One copy of Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children book (published by Penguin Random House).
4. Girl Lane Hair Sparkle Shine Spray.
5. Mission Food packaged food items.
6. Peculiar socks x 4 pairs.
7. Candles x 3.
8. Lollipops x 4.
I’m so happy as I haven’t seen the movie and I think I might invite the Neighbors and their kids over to watch it for our viewing party and take a picture and send it before the 9th of Jan so I could then go in the draw to win a pair of Emma’s boots from the movie.
I love that it’s a Tim Burton directed movie as I have been a huge fan of his work since he did Edward Scissorhands and I think he is fantastic.
I love that I am winning things as it’s making me feel better about my current health situation it’s making me feel happy even if it’s for a little while and I feel more confident and I feel like I have a purpose at the moment when things in my life health wise are not so good.
Fresh Winner Brony 🙂
This is what is planned for our January this year for me I will be resting and taking it very easy unless by some miracle I get to see my Thyroid Specialist and he discovers the answers to my problems so until then I will be catching up on all my fave Tv shows and movies on Netflix and Foxtel (thanks to my darling man for working hard and providing these luxury’s for us) I also will be listening to Spotify which has been a blessing to have when I have my really bad days and can’t get out of bed.
As for my man he will be very busy working starting tomorrow for a couple of days he has to clean an entire house from top to bottom as now he is also a property manager for his work along with a huge number of other job titles (too many to mention them all) he has to partake in and not get overtime for (but gets to bank up holidays which is a stretch to get when he is needed maybe not valued enough in my opinion) in his forever changing and added extra to all the time Job. My man on top of all this has to take care of me and our house as I can’t do much at the moment being unwell.
On the 22nd of January is my darling mans 47th birthday so we will be celebrating his birthday by going out to our fave restaurant The Rice Buffet and then maybe to see a movie depending on what’s on and how I’m feeling as I can’t seem to go past 9 pm at night before I hit the wall and have to go to bed to sleep.
Here is what’s on the menu at our fave place to eat The Rice Buffet:
I have known this has been a big problem in my stepsons life since he was little when he would come to us for visitation weekends (every second weekend) and he would wake up in tears and screaming from nightmares from movies (like Chucky at age 3, Saw at age 8, The Kingsman at age 11 ) he would watch these inappropriate movies with his mother and sister (who is 7 years older than him). Each time his father and I would be horrified that he had been allowed to view/watch these disgusting and disturbing materials and there is nothing we could do (apart from already discussing all issues including these with his mother in several meditations which failed every time because it’s not a refection of her behaviours and her parenting and we have talked to my stepson till we are blue in the face about how inappropriate these movies are and not to watch them if he doesn’t want to) because his mother had custody and the right to raise him as she sore fit and that was to be his “friend” and not his parent.
It has become very clear to me after watching DEADPOOL (which my stepsons sister took him to see last year when he was 12 and once again we didn’t know till after the fact when stepson had told us he’s already seen it we looked at the reviews at the time and were appalled once again that his mother had let her son see this type of movie) for only maybe 10 minutes or so when (Wade and Vanessa are comparing how bad their lives are and Wade confides he had been molested by his uncle and Vanessa counters that she had been molested by multiple uncles and that they took turns) (anyone who knows my past would know why this was a point of no return for me and why it upset me so and to stop watching the rest of the movie) just how much of a problem viewing/watching this content has become and how much it has influenced his current behaviour (which is in the toilet at present) and why he is using the worst swear words in history and saying them with such anger it’s scary and no wonder he is being disrespectful to the women in his lives (including me) It’s partly because he is allowed to view/watch such content and not only allowed but it’s deemed as :”funny” and “acceptable” behaviour in his household.
My stepson needs a lot of help at current and I’m not sure how to do that when we are only in his life for school holidays it’s very hard and sad that this is how it is for my stepson and others seem to think that this is in the best interest of the child.
I woke up at 2:00 am this morning with intense period pain due to this crazy roller coaster ride that my Thyroid is taking me on I got up and somehow in the dark found the Ibuprofen I took two quietly with some water not to wake my man up from his very peaceful slumber and went back to bed I tossed and turned for awhile then got up and I went on the computer which is in my stepsons room which I have been sleeping in while he is at his mothers house for school terms (not that he goes very often mind you) I did some more research on my symptoms then tried to go back to sleep but the pain was still intense so then I thought what else could I do (I know find some music to listen to that may put me back to sleep) .
So I went back online and went searching for one of my fave singers of all time Nina Simone I came to love her when I saw this movie called The Assassin which heavily features Miss Simone I ended up searching for Nina on Spotify I added all of my fave songs of hers and just listened to her soul soothing beautiful voice and drifted in and out of sleep until my man woke me up at 5:20 am as he was getting ready to go to work (god bless him) I went back into our big comfy bed and slept then until 6:57 am when my body clock tells me to get up even though I’m still so very tired. Here is a clip from the movie for you all to enjoy and Here is some Nina songs to listen to if you wish to. Thank you Nina for some much needed music medicine and I wish you were still with us on this earth so I could let you know how special you were.:)
So what gets you through the night ?
Now for some good news I have been entering competitions when I am having a rare good not as tired day and I was going through my 5000 emails and I came across one that said The Strain – Access All Areas – Competition Winner and I won so I am getting 1 x copy of The Strain Season 1 on DVD I was so happy that I had finally won something the last time I had won something was when I was 23 I won tickets to see the Whitlams lol.
My Health Update:
Well I went yesterday and got my last blood test results from last week and it looks like I have both Hypo and Hyper thyroid Under and Over active Thyroid but both are showing that they are normal levels but I am still showing symptoms of both which is strange because I had hypo first it usually goes the other way and not at the same time he also said I could just be stressed and tired and just need more sleep I get a possible 10 hours a night but not sure if I actually do he also asked me if I should go on anti depressants I sad no way I have seen and observed what they did to my stepson when he was put on Zoloft they turned him into a unemotional robot zombie he had no emotions what so ever I would rather feel down, sad, angry and at times happy than nothing at all and I did research on the side effects and was disgusted with what I found out and if you don’t take them right it could cause hallucinations and suicidal thoughts if you go off them and back on them again I asked if I had Cronic fatigue syndrome or Sleep apnea or Lupus he said he didn’t think so and then I asked if I could go to a specialist so he refereed me to a Endocrinologist so hopefully within a week I will have spoken with the specialist and will get some more comprehensive tests and hopefully some answers fingers crossed I am definitely one in a million and I think my new nick will be Uncommon Bronwyn lol oxox.
This is the new No 1 song on our Aria Charts here in Australia this week. It’s a very calming, relaxing and optimistic song. I think it’s a wonderful collaboration between these three very cool artist’s.
Now I know a lot of people out there love cold water whether it’s to drink or swim in but for me personally I like to drink tap water at room temperature because when I drink cold water it makes my throat go funny and phlegmy it’s worse after eating something hot too I’ve been like that my whole life. It’s the same with cold showers I would rather a steaming hot shower over a cold one even in a hot summer the only exception is to swim in but only in summer I would never swim in a cold pool in winter unless it was really heated lol.
The other thing I don’t like that is cold in winter is a toilet seat there is nothing worse than going to the water closet and having to sit on a cold toilet seat we have a carpeted mat for our feet but nothing for our cheeks when needing to go to the loo. I know you can buy a toilet seat heater but for a proper electric one it will set you back hundreds which at the moment I just don’t have so I will be putting this on my one day wish list for sure lol.
Over the last week my man has been upgrading all our computers and laptops old and new to Window’s 10 and I’m quite happy to report that so far it has been a easy transition from windows 7 I can still do my searches on the internet and within the computer itself and change the desktop background image to what I like. I’m still working out a few things with usb stick formats and conversions to use it from computer to tv I still am yet to look at the new streaming with the xbox thing not sure if I have the patience right now for that maybe one day lol. I’m off to have a drink of not so cold water 🙂