This is my new Pinterest board dedicated to my invisible illness take a look if you wish to.
This has been what I have known since I was a little girl at the age of seven living with children who have come from broken homes created by a broken system thus creating a broken society.
Why do governments give people incentives to sit on their bottoms and be and do nothing and yet when people try to succeed there are no incentives to keep trying to succeed after paying taxes and working hard for over 20 years the government should be giving something back to the people working hard and paying taxes e.g a holiday voucher or some money back some acknowledgement for trying to better themselves and be someone in this world and not be a burden on society.
The main reason I am writing this blog is to highlight the impact of what a broken system and broken society does to it’s children it’s hurts them, it breaks them, it destroys them and sometimes it changes them to be more and sometimes history repeats. What I do know is children either do what their parents do or they go completely against them.
I want this all to stop world the violence needs to stop (both men and women can be violent) I want the false allegations to stop and consequences given if these allegations are proven to be false (some women use domestic violence to gain access and custody of their children which also allows them to gain financially in receiving child support for the next 18 years why is this never said in the media and why can’t both parents be accountable for their children they both created their child/children they should be both paying for their child/children not just the non custodial parent (who pays whether they have the child/children in their care or not) and the custodial parent should be accountable for where that money goes (they don’t have to pay for the child/children when that child/children is not with them) it shouldn’t go on Alcohol, Cigarettes, Drugs, Fast food and Gambling. Stop being Selfish Vindictive Narcissists who only care about themselves (just because you have decided to be and do nothing with your lives doesn’t mean your children have to suffer and be and do the same) I can’t have children due to my Hypothyroidism I do know that if I could and did I would be helping my child succeed and would want the best for them.
I have been struggling with my invisible illness now since May this year I have been on my Thyroxine 50mgs meds for 7 weeks and they are not working as much as I thought they should they have helped reduce some symptoms but some are becoming more prevalent in the last week I have been experiencing more symptoms. Symptom 1 the other night I kept waking up with a jolt which was really scary and strange and every time I went to go back to sleep it would happen again and again all night leaving me severely fatigued the next day/s. Symptom 2 I have been getting the feeling of butterflies in my stomach for no reason (Anxiety). Symptom 3 I have been breaking out with severe acne/pimples I can currently count ten on my forehead at this moment and they are really sore and awful. Symptom 4 when I went to the doctors last he asked me if I was depressed I said I don’t know because I don’t think I have ever been depressed but since being on the tablets I have had days where I feel depressed. I went to doctor google (who is a lot cheaper than a real one) to research all these symptoms and yes they are all to do with my under active thyroid yeah not.
Update: I went and got another blood test (one of many in my future) last week to hopefully get my new dosage of meds I am waiting to hear from my doctor to get the results back which hopefully will give me my life back because I am sick of sitting on my bottom being and doing nothing this was not my choice and I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy not that I have many of those.
This is the New No 1 song here in Australia on the Aria Charts it’s a beautiful song about love and how even when your old and your love passes away you will always hold on to the memories and that they will be with you forever.
I’m sorry if this is a bit depressing but I have to talk about this. This song is very relevant to me in light of what has happened in the past few days I lost another of my school friends her name was Crystal it’s very sad she was only 38 and left behind her two teenage children she was beautiful inside and out (always smiling) she would do anything for anyone (she offered me and my man a place to stay at her place during a cyclone and I will never forget that) that’s the kind of person she was she would give you the shirt off her back or a place to stay or whatever you needed. So I thought I would use this blog to honor those friends I have lost along the way gone but never forgotten: Crystal, Nicky, David, Tania, Helen D,Vanessa, Dickie, Chanelle, Smithy, Helen O and Gavin. There are alot more to honor grandparents, friends of mum and dad and my brothers. You all are always in my heart with love and fond memories and I won’t let go until my last breath I promise. So anyone out there pick up your mobile phone and call a friend and tell them you love them as it maybe their last day on this earth.
Over the last few days talking to friends on Facebook and sharing memories of Crystal seeing a school photo of us all in grade 5 made me think back to my childhood and all the things I loved got me thinking what my favourite cartoon character was mine was Felix the cat because I love cats I also loved Tom and Jerry too. What was your fave cartoon character as a child ?
My Health Update: I haven’t been online much in the past few months as I haven’t been very well my new meds haven’t been working as well as I thought they would I have notice a few things are slightly better but I’m still very tired all the time so I’m going again to get another blood test today to hopefully find out what level meds I need to feel better and so I can get on with my life because life is to short to be tired and just sitting around and doing nothing.