It was my niece Dana’s Birthday on the 10th and she got engaged to her partner Dean a few days after so congratulations you two on your engagement 🙂 oxox
As for me I have spent most of this month sick from the side effects of my second Pfizer jab and I am pleased to say I started feeling better about a week ago and that also means I am now fully vacinated from covid 19 for the time being. This also means I was able to get back into streaming on Twitch which I did on Thursday and I tell you it felt great to be back I did a tribute stream for Ma’s sister in law who passed away from cancer recently I played Slots for free with my Ma and friends watching and chatting we had a lovely time together 🙂
As for John he has been working and playing hard he got to go up in a plane for a joy ride with his friend who is a pilot and he payed his final pay to his ex for Child Support $2160 and is all caught up with 0 to pay her and the tax office he even got $700 back in his tax refund this year for the first time in around 5 years 🙂
Oh happy days to us I feel like things have started to turn around and that the light is shining on us for a change 🙂
This is the New No 1 song on the Aria Charts this week Stay by The Kid LAROI and Justin Bieber I love this song I think it’s a Shining song and I love at the end of the video when the The Kid LAROI gets to the window of the diner where she is sitting in a booth looking at her phone crying.
Many times in my relationships I have contemplated this question do I Stay or do I go and usually I leave after a few years around the 4 year mark as I don’t want to waste mine or my boyfriend at the times time. Well I have been with John now for 18 years this year and I know there have been times I have questioned this question and the only reason is because he is a hoarder that is the only reason he loves stuff and has trouble getting rid of stuff and it’s gotten harder because I have been sick for the past 5 years so I’ve been struggling to keep up with keeping the house tidy and clean I still have hope as when he can now he does help clean and has started to go through his stuff and throw stuff out it’s a slow process but I am happy because I know he is at least trying to do something with all his stuff so I stay encourging and kind to him in the hopes he continues going through his stuff and I am staying as I know it could be a lot worse he doesn’t come home drunk or do drugs or gamble or hit me which in my eyes is a lot worse I know things at the moment for us are not perfect but I also know what we have been through and having to deal with Child Support has been a huge burden on us both emotionally and financially and it’s taken it’s toll on us both so now that all that bullshit is over I am hopeful we can start living our lives again and get back to where we were somehow 🙂
I used to smoke when I was younger but it was mostly a social thing when out dancing at the clubs and it was mostly menthol cigarettes the last time I had a puff would of been around 20 years old.
2. Dining out — every night.
I have never done this every night we used to have one night a week where we would have take away and that would usually be when we would go late night shopping on Thursday nights. Even now it’s once in a blue moon of late it’s been after a medical appointment as a treat the last time I ate out was after I got my first Pfizer vaccine we went and had a Subway sandwich and a cookie each that was almost 3 weeks ago now.
3. Not staying active.
This one I am atm sure I have a Bad Habit of doing as it’s very hard with my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome to be active it’s only been since I first got sick I have been like this so 5 years so far I hate not being active I miss dancing and going for walks on the beach etc 😦
4. Getting too stressed out.
This one also I do more so now I am unwell as it’s hard not to stress about things when you are sick I do try not to but I have always been a bit of a worry wort.
5. Having a few too many cocktails.
I used to do this one more back in the day once again when we would go clubbing my fave back then was fruit tingles. I hardly ever drink nowadays unless I win bottles of wine and then I usually end up putting it in the spag bol sauce lol
Other than two of the above Bad Habits I have another two.
Sleeping in I do this more so in winter cause it’s bloody cold and I want to stay warm in my bed and I do it cause I am tired all the time with my cfs and sometimes my Alexa is playing really good songs and I just want to stay and listen to them lol.
Watching Youtube music videos and the ads inbetween as I want to eat and drink what the ads have in them lol like coffee and Subway etc lol. I mainly make a coffee as it’s too hard for me to go get the food on my own with my cfs and we don’t have many options for Uber Eats here either so that’s a good thing lol.
So those are my main Bad Habits atm lol.
As for John atm there is one main Bad Habit that drives me absolutely crazy and that is he never puts the scissors back in the scissors drawer in the kitchen. We have about 3 to 4 pairs of scissors I go around the house and find them all and put them in the drawer and when I go back to use a pair they are all gone grrr it’s makes me soo mad lol
Sorry everyone this is going to be a big rant blog post as I am still not well from having my first covid vaccine which was 2 and a half weeks ago I go back for the second one next week I know again if I got actual covid I would be fucked (sorry for the swear words but it’s not a rant without them hey) I just wish I didn’t have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Hypothyroidism on top. All I have done these past weeks is Watch Netflix and Amazon Prime and Disney+ and kind of eat and drink coffee as I have been feeling sick.
Now for the rant on companies like Twitch and Twitter. First lets start with Twitch I love this platform with two exceptions the fact that I can’t listen to my fave music and sing along as it’s copyright. Now I need Music and Singing to get me through my day with my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and it’s very hard to not do these things during my streams also I only get to stream at least once a week unless I am sick due to my cfs so why is it that when I go onto a big streamers channel and they are allowed to play and sing to songs by Queen etc How is that fair when I am only a small streamer but I am made to feel like a criminal for wanting to play my fave music and sing to it I thought I was Human and a Adult and that I could do these things but No because of copyright I can’t. PLEASE Twitch fix this bullshit I would be happy to pay a Subcription for 5, 10 or even 12 dollars a month to be able to play and sing music because that is two of the things apart from streaming that I love to do and that makes me happy in this world.
Now for Twitter I went on yesterday to enter some competitions as I always do cause that also makes me happy and when I went to retweet a comp I was trying to enter to get more entries I got fucking suspended as it was deemed as spam like what the fuck I have been doing and entering comps for the past 5 years they have kept me from going insane with my cfs and now I can’t retweet them and get more entires grrrr I am pissed off I have never done anything wrong in my life and now I have two companies treating me like a criminal and making my already limited life even more limited.
So now I feel like giving up on everything I have tried to do to keep my head above water and stay positive and happy (by the way the tears are falling as I write this as I am very upset atm with this world) I feel like just going back to how I was when I first got sick 5 years ago and just sitting on my comfy couch and watching Netflix and Amazon Prime and Disney+ and eat and drinking coffee as those things for now won’t get me into trouble.
As for John he finally finished putting in and fixing all his tax stuff way before due time because he is a good man and always does the right thing eventually at least so now we are just waiting for the result of all that to find out what he still owes if any because he has already payed nearly 4000 dollars to his ex from past taxes that were not done properly it doesn’t matter what she does with it and wheather it even goes to the child (which we know it didn’t) all that matters is he is the father and he has to pay what he has to pay even though it is officially over as my stepson is now 18 years old. We will be very happy once we know the exact amount if any so we can finally move on with our lives and actually live it even with my limitations I will live it somehow.
I am sorry for the long rant I really needed to get somethings off my chest and for me this is the best way to do so I just am feeling deflated and defeated atm by the whole world.
I hope you all have had a Fulgent June. Now lets go watch a streaming service before I get into trouble lol.
This post is about what has happened so far in June 2021.
There has been lots of Birthdays this month mine, my Ma’s and lots of irl friends and Twitch friends as well too many to name in here lol So Happy Birthday to everyone who had a Birthday in June I hope it was a Fulgent day for you all 🙂 oxox.
As mentioned it was my Birthday in June on the 7th I am very luck as I got early bday pressies a new keyboard and microphone a few months before on sale then on my actual Birthday I streamed for 10 hours and I got lots of Happy Bdays and 4 Subcriptions to my channel and a few Birthday bits from my Twitch friends I showed a few pics of me growing up throughout the day and we played stream raiders together the whole day. John came home from work with another pressie all wrapped up it was a new mobile phone a c3 realme with a lovely colour blue on the back of the phone I did a unboxing while I was streaming 🙂 The next day I woke up with a bloody migraine so I spent the next two days in bed and watching Netflix.
Then on Saturday the 12th I went and got my first covid pfizer vaccine we went to Subway for lunch after as a treat I could already tell it was affecting me I had white dots in my right eye like I get when I get my migraines and I fell asleep in the car on the way home and pretty much got out of my clothes and into my pj’s and went to bed it was mid-day at this point I slept for over a hour and then woke up with major fatigue it felt like I did when I first got sick 5 years ago it was horrible so for four days all I did was sleep and watch Netflix as once the fatigue got less my tummy got yucky (even though we have been eating lots of salads and trying to eat healthyish foods) so then for the next 2 days I felt soo sick even I week later I am feeling a little sick on and off but at least the fatigue has gone back to where I was it was scary though I was angry and upset as I wasn’t sure if it was going to get better or not I am glad I am back on the mend now and I am also grateful as if I actually got covid I know it would of been a lot worse so I go back on the 7th of July for my second dose and I am a little scared as I keep hearing that some people got worse side effects on the second one I guess only time will tell 🙂 John brought me Pink Roses last night to cheer me up which was not necessary but very lovely indeed of him to do that for me 🙂
As for John he has been busy working hard and buying stuff on the Amazon Prime Day sales lol. He brought a kindle and movies for him and for me, pillows for me and even something for the cats to play with lol plus some others things like lens wipes for our glasses and dust proctector screens for the mobile phones.
It’s been a busy month and I hope your June as been a Fulgent one too 🙂
This is the new No 1 song here in Aus good 4 u by Olivia Rodrigo and the music video is directed by petra collins I love this song I think it’s fulgent I also love the end of the music video when Olivia is swimming in the lake and her eyes turn red like the devils. good 4 u is a popular song by Olivia Rodrigo on TikTok 🙂
This is the new No 1 Song on the Aria Charts this week Body by Russ Millions and Tion Wayne I love this song and I love the beat 🙂
Lets talk about listening to your body I have learnt to listen to my body very well over the last 5 years since having both Hypothyroidism and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. If I am feeling unwell and ravenous hungry it means I should go and get my thyroid levels checked which the last few years have been stable If I need to rest I do so with my fatigue. What I will say is you never know what is around that corner so live your life as much as you can when you are young and shoot your shot!
This is what has happened and what is to come for May this year 🙂
There has been a few Birthdays this month to everyone who has had a Birthday this month I hope it was a Wonderful one but most notably my Nephew Tyler’s at the beginning of the month and my Stepson’s at the end of the month who is turning the big 18 (where did that time go hey ) which means we are about 1 month to go till the end of Child Support WHOOOOO HOOOOOOO apart from what John still owes in taxes to his ex which should be finalised within the next few months then we can actually start to save and start our future finally 🙂
As for John he has been busy working as he always is and does and I would be lost without him 🙂
As for me we had my Ma and Pa (Stepdad) down here for about a week visiting family down here so we went out everyday together which was very Wonderful and lovely with lots of hugs all around 🙂 I have a big week next week for my stream me and my community will be celebrating my 2 year Streamiversary and 2 year Affiliate Anniversary here is the poster for the event :
♥It’s Dudaversary Time♥
♥2 Year Streamiversary and 2 Year Affiliate Anniversary♥
♥May 17th 2021♥
♥I will be playing an assortment of community games♥
♥I will be giving away a $25 steam gift card at the end of the stream♥
This is the new No 1 song on the Aria Charts this week WITHOUT YOU by The Kid LAROI and it’s a GRADE A PRODUCTIONS. I think this is a Wonderful heartbreak song I love the burning flaming tree at the end which represents how you feel when your heartbroken like you are on fire like the flames will never go out.
I want to say a big Thank You to my man John for being there along by my side for the last 17 years and counting especially the last 5 years with all my health problems he has stayed by me through thick and thin times and he hasn’t given up on me we are somehow still going strong and keeping our heads above water hopefully for many more years to come 🙂
SNL: Miley Cyrus and The Kid LAROI Perform Their ‘Without You’ Remix for the First Time
The Kid LAROI said “so collaborating with her was pretty cool.”
This is the new No 1 here in Aus on the Aria Charts MONTERO by Lil Nas X I think it’s a Marvelous song and video I love the end when he takes the devils horns and puts them on and that makes the angel wings come out 🙂